Disclaimer: Notes From Refuge is a personal testimony about my experiences of trying to survive police surveillance. I am raising this in the public interest in order to help and protect other whistleblowers from facing this kind of punishment. This post raises serious issues about human rights violations that must be tackled and scrutinised by relevant bodies. This personal account documents my lived experiences and observations about perceived state misconduct. It reflects my honest recollections and fears. No statements are made with malice or intent to defame. All incidents logged contemporaneously.

Legal Note – Defamation Act 2013 s. 4 Honest Opinion Defence (Public interest and honest opinion). Covert police surveillance is a matter of public interest, particularly when it involves an innocent, vulnerable adult. My observations that I publish in this post are factual and are published in the public interest to push for police accountability. These facts include number plates, dates and logs. Where I express views, they are my honest opinion based on these facts and are protected under the Defamation Act 2013, Section 4.

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Notes From Refuge

Notes from Refuge: The last few months since I posted my final blog post on here have been indescribable. Utterly terrifying. Since I ended my online campaign on 31st October, I believe that I have been unlawfully stalked, surveilled and hounded by police from North Yorkshire and across the UK. I am writing notes from refuge in Orkney, where I fled for safety on January 20th, 2026.

***What’s Been Happening?***

After I wrote my last blog post about ‘suspected’ state surveillance, (phone tracking and CCTV tracking) my suspicions turned into a full-blown reality of unrelenting harassment and stalking by North Yorkshire Police. They have treated me like I’m a spy or terrorist, not the vulnerable adult who needs help and protection. It has been a vicious oversight by those in power – an unforgivable state overreach that has broken me. The surveillance that I have experienced by North Yorkshire Police started in mid-November, just after I published my final blog post on here and when I had gone visibly quiet on social media – when they knew I’d stopped speaking.

Surveillance Log- North Yorkshire

• Intense Police Presence: A North Yorkshire and Humberside police van was circulating around Kirbymoorside, a town where you never ever see police. Each time my bus, the 128, passed through West End Street in Kirby, the police van passed by and spot-checked me.
• This intensified. There were progressively more police vans in Kirbymoorside. Police vans—unheard of in Kirbymoorside—circulated constantly and were spot-checking my 128 bus. Many residents noticed the amount of police because Kirbymoorisde is a town where there is no police presence.
• Night Operations: Every night at 6.00pm and then at 9.00pm an unmarked car with red and white strobe lights drove past my flat in the rural lanes behind the fields. I thought at first that the cars may be farmers, but the patterns were too consistent. It was police monitoring me. This went on for months.
• Plain Clothed Officers: There were plainclothes officers in cars waiting at the end of my drive. This was particularly noticeable on December 18th, 2025, at 12.10pm.
• Stalking and Visual Interception: Then the stalking started. There were two police cars positioned every night in Kirbymoorisde at the bus stop on Market Place and outside the Memorial Hall from 6.00pm.
• Recorded Incident: January 16th, 2026 I took the 128 bus at 12.45pm to Scarborough to run errands. A police van drove by and spot-checked me at Kirby. At 18.00 when I returned, there was a police van parked at the bus stop on Market Place in Kirbymoorside, the last lit stop before my stop. The officer leant forward to look at the passengers, and then he extinguished the interior light after visually confirming my presence, with no interaction or policing purpose explained. Beyond the night strobes, this was overt stalking.
• Helicopter Monitoring: The same night, there were helicopters circulating over the area where I live.

Orkney

I felt hemmed in. The police presence was suffocating and terrifying. I thought I was going to be arrested, even though I didn’t know what for. I was so frightened. So, I packed up my flat. I packed a suitcase, and I left. My stuff is still there because I am still paying rent on the property, but I packed a suitcase and fled. I wanted to leave the mainland because I thought that I’d be safer on an island. I felt pulled by the vast coastal vistas and space of the Orkney Isles. The spirituality of the standing stones in the Ring of Brodgar, the images of the cliffs of Yesnaby, Earl’s Palace in Birsay, and the unique wildlife presence on the island – all felt like a refuge away from police vans and strobing lights. However, Orkney has not turned out to be the refuge I had hoped for. Police have followed me here. As soon as North Yorkshire police saw I was not at my flat (during their night ops), they clearly entered me into a national police/ intelligence database and handed over the surveillance to Police Scotland. I believe police agents followed me to Orkney and agents are surveilling me here. I cannot convey to you the level of terror I am feeling.

My journey

When I left North Yorkshire, I did everything I could to preserve my privacy. I left my iPhone, iPad and laptop at home so there could be no digital trace of me. I bought a small burner phone that resembled the brick phones of the 1990s. No internet usage, just texts and phone calls. Digital blackout. I stayed under the radar as much as I could. I took the train to Morpeth and spent two days in a family-run hostel in rural Wooler, where there were owners on site. My journey from Wooler was as safe as it could be. I took taxis all the way to Edinburgh (it cost me a fortune,) with a one-night stopover in a hotel in Duns.

Surveillance in Scotland-

Incident Log

I became visible on CCTV in Edinburgh. That’s when intelligence saw me. I took a City Link bus from Edinburgh to Inverness. The first suspicious activity related to surveillance happened on my journey on the X99 from Inverness to Thurso.

• Friday, January 23rd: deep in the rural landscape of Caithness, on the rocky coastal roads, there was a marked police car at a bus stop when we stopped. I noted it was unusual to see a police car positioned at a bus stop so rurally.
• When I alighted the X99 at Thurso, there was an unmarked black car with flashing red and white strobes at the bus stop. The car waited as I alighted and then followed me to my hotel, The Inn at Y-Not.
• Saturday 24th January, 8.00am: This was the peak of my terror levels. I was having breakfast at my hotel, and a black car pulled up outside my hotel, opposite Lidl, and sat positioned there for an hour with its headlights on. That car followed me to the ferry port at Scrabster.
• January 24^th: Ferry Crossing, MV Hamnavoe Ferry: His car sat at the terminal. His car had a SACRO sticker in the window (a criminal justice organisation in Edinburgh which protects communities from crime and has contracts with the police.) His registration number was M24 ROO or M24 RDO. At 11.30am, a man wearing a tracksuit and woolly hat walked into the departure lounge. He had no luggage, only an iPad. He sat down, stared at me, and wrote a note on his iPad. I knew he was a police officer or someone official. He stood out like a sore thumb.
• January 24th, 2026, Ferry Arrival: At Stromness, Orkney, the man followed me off the Hamnavoe ferry. He was carrying no luggage. That was noticeable. I stopped to let him pass me by, but he stood by the ferry and watched me walk to the car, where a lady who was housing me for the week was waiting for me.

Surveillance Log – Orkney

 

• 25th January: 9.00am outside my rented flat in Stromness, I saw the man walking down the high street, looking at me, and then again, I saw him walking past my window early morning at 7.00am on Monday 26th January. He’d clocked where I was staying.
• 27th January/Wednesday 28th January: A black Toyota Prius (Reg: YT61 EUZ) was parked up outside my flat in Stromness with two boat tickets visible on the dash. Two men from the car walked into the block of flats directly opposite where I was staying. Later that day, a huge estate car with “Dunnets of Caithness” on the registration plate parked behind the Toyota Prius. (Caithness is where the intel/police followed me from.)
• 28th January: I felt threatened by these cars. I went to stay at Browns Hostel for the night in Stromness. The black Toyota Prius was driving up and down the street that night appearing to look for me.
• 31st January: I moved to a different property. The landlord drove me to a self-catering cottage I rented in Finstown, where I stayed for a week. I arrived at 1.00pm. At 3.00pm, a man with a woolly hat from the boat and wearing black waterproofs was peering through my sitting-room window.
• 1st February: At 3.00am, I heard men’s voices outside the bedroom window.
• 4th February: The man with the woolly hat and tracksuit from the boat followed me into Magnus Café Kirkwall, was staring at me and looked like he wanted to talk to me, but he didn’t.
• 5th February: An unrecognised man wearing a suit followed me from the library to the Citizens Advice Bureau in Kirkwall. When I came out, he was standing outside, making notes on an iPad.
• Police Vans: 12th February 10:00am en route to Kirkwall library: A police van slows as they pass me; two officers laugh pointedly. I felt unnerved by this.
• 13^th February 10.00am, Same van with the same officers as yesterday passed me again on Junction Road as I walked to the library and slowed as they passed me.

Library Surveillance

• 9th February: At Kirkwall library, a man matching ‘one of them’ description, (well dressed and official) was sitting in library foyer, laptop on home screen (not working), staring directly at me while I got a cigarette. Fear logged with library staff at 11.20am. Man left soon after.
•  Feb 10th 3:15pm, Kirkwall Library – A bald headed man in a brown jumper, jeans, brown shoes, tan suede jacket over adjacent chair (seen multiple times) –  was sitting at a desktop directly opposite me displaying MY BLOG IMAGES/NYP images and scans – Writing in LONG HANDWRITTEN LOG when spotted – Switched to cartoons after I passed = monitoring target. Terrifying.
• Feb 13th 2.00pm: Same bald headed man from 10th February came into Kirkwall library again and this time sat directly opposite me- too close. He was wearing blue jeans and a blue shirt this time and was looking at cartoons on desktop. Odd- middle aged man, clearly wealthy, looking at cartoons on library desktop. I logged fear with staff.
• Feb 16th and Feb 17th: The same man returned to Kirkwall library, 2-4pm. He sat at computer facing the wall.

Suspicious Residential Stalking

Orkney council have placed me in Peedie Hostel, Kirkwall for temporary housing for four weeks until March 3rd. Over the past week, clear patterns indicate undercover police stalking is happening at the hostel. The evidence suggests that this is likely. I checked in on Saturday 7^th February.

• 8th February, 8.00pm: a man checked into Peedie Hostel, Kirkwall, claiming to be ‘touring’ and was seen on Monday, 9th February, driving off in high vis on a BMW motorbike at 9.00am (reg: RF21/RE21 OPX). As I left my bothy at Peedie Hostel on the morning of 9th February, someone opened and then slammed shut the hostel door as I passed. Appeared they wanted to see me but didn’t want to be seen.
• Feb 8th-9th pattern: English ‘touring’ guest arrives the night after I check in → Mon 9th 9am BMW bike RF21/RE21 OPX alley → door slams as I pass reception → 11am library stare (blank laptop). Pre-guest: quiet. Post-guest: suspicious targeting.
• BMW status on 11th February: Now covered and stationary at Peedie Hostel (odd for a “tourer”—and a BMW vehicle is out of place at a hostel, where homeless people are temporarily placed).
• 11th February, 8.00pm: The house opposite my bothy had been empty since 7th February, but it was suddenly occupied at 8.00pm by a man wearing jeans/black waterproof with a strong Orcadian accent, who checked in on his own. The owner and the man were talking outside my door. The owner said to him, “The girl is staying there.” He was up all night moving—possible operational surveillance, not a normal guest for a hostel. Unconfirmed but possibly a local asset used to closely monitor me.
• Rotation signs, 13 February: The situation with these two men is becoming more suspicious as the days unfold. Firstly, a well-dressed middle-aged man, alone in a hostel with a BMW bike, looks out of place. Secondly, their movements seem to indicate a possible rotation watch. Yesterday, I arrived back at the hostel at 6.00pm. The house light was on, man. A, (Orcadian man) is at home. Ten mins later, the light is off, he goes out, and the BMW arrives back – man B (BMW rider) returns. Thirdly, man A, (Orcadian man) is up all night in the ‘hoose’ until 6.00am, turning water on and off and doing washing, and then he crashes at 6.00am, which suggests possible night duty watch.
• 13 Feb-15 Feb: Audio Cover-Night Watch: Nightly audio cover from Man A’s hoose. Over the weekend, all through the night, there were incessant water flushing sounds coming from the ‘hoose’ where man A, (Orcadian man) is staying. At 3.00am and 4.00am, there were incessant sounds of spin cycles on a washing machine, which was obviously being used to cover for audio updates or conversations he didn’t want to be heard. There were none of these sounds when the man was out in the day or before he arrived.
• 16th February: Audio Team Installed – Operation Escalation: At 6.00am I opened my door and looked up at the ‘hoose’ window. The light was on. The man obviously saw I clocked him. The flushing sounds and spin cycles stopped immediately. At 10.00am, I was going out to the taxi. An Italian man who I had not seen before came out of the main hostel building, (black and white checkered trousers.) He said ‘hello’, and he was walking towards the ‘hoose’ as if he was looking for someone there. He was carrying a large zip bag concealing what looked like a shotgun microphone. The new Italian man saw that I was staring at him. He looked at me suspiciously as he waited at the ‘hoose’.
• Since I saw the officer deliver the shotgun mic to the ‘hoose’ on 16th February, I fear that my movements are now being recorded. I’m too frightened to use my phone to call Samaritans or Breathing Space for support – for fear of being monitored. I’d have more freedom in a prison cell.

Assessment

This is a serious surveillance operation that is going on. I feel sick with terror. I am shaking as I write this, nauseous from sleepless nights listening to man A pace relentlessly and cycle the water on/off and new developments every five minutes. It looks more than 90% likely that I am being stalked by police at Peedie Hostel. They are on site. I am terrified for my well-being and safety. I live in constant fear of arrest. This is disgusting and coercive. This RIPA-breaching operation under a civilian roof terrorises a vulnerable adult in council care. I demand IOPC probe + CCTV/guest logs release. These reported incidents in Scotland suggest that North Yorkshire Police have handed over this operation to Police Scotland/national surveillance. I am being surveilled by Police Scotland or a surveillance unit nationally, who have no warrant or safeguarding order. This is a violation of my human right to privacy, (ECHR 8) and my human right to life, (ECHR 2). The most recent incidents – library surveillance on 10th Feb and property stalking – echo the NDEDIU (National Domestic Extremism and Disorder Intelligence Unit  (SDS successor) -style coordination and intimidation, given its close proximity to me and the rotation of agents. The NDEDIU is the direct SDS successor, targeting campaigns through undercover proximity intimidation. The Orkney leg of this surveillance seems to be an undercover operation to closely monitor me. I am terrified.

Orkney Council

Feb 10th: Orkney Council kindly agreed to house me in temporary accommodation (Kirkwall hostel) for four weeks until March 3rd. However, they have refused permanent housing despite documented NYP/Police Scotland surveillance (Peedie CCTV, SACRO M24 ROO/RDO, library logs). Despite knowing that I fled my property in Yorkshire due to police harassment, Orkney Council claim I am not homeless because ‘I have a secure tenancy, and it is reasonable for me to return to Yorkshire.’ They also falsely stated I ‘refused’ to give them permission to investigate the issues or to clarify my housing history. This is untrue. I did not refuse. They have not done any welfare checks despite my stated suicidal risk. I told them I was terrified and requested refuge at Women’s Aid, but they refused. The close surveillance continues: the man opposite pacing all night, repeatedly turning water on/off until collapsing. New man arrives on the scene. I felt physically sick with terror, and unable to sleep. The property has CCTV, so I feel a bit safer than in an isolated cottage. However, even here at the hostel, where I felt a measure of safety with its CCTV presence, unease has followed, (see section above.) Something doesn’t feel right in these details. The fear persists. No protection or help from council.

My Feelings

I believe that none of this surveillance is lawful. North Yorkshire Police, Police Scotland or any force have a safeguarding order over me or warrant to surveil me. I am a law abiding, peaceful citizen. I have no criminal convictions and I am not a threat to national security or public safety. In order to surveil someone legally in UK, they have to be one of those. My campaign content also fell within protected speech, (ECHR 10.) I feel terrified and worn down. My future is uncertain. However, this is what disgusts me about this surveillance operation that North Yorkshire Police have launched. Firstly, they waited until I had gone digitally silent before they pounced. They waited until I published my final social media post and blog posts. I find this sinister and cowardly. Secondly, in only April 2025, they served a Public Protection Notice (PPN) on North Yorkshire County Council asking them to safeguard me and support me, which NYCC ignored. North Yorkshire Police also carried out a forced entry welfare check on my property in February 2025 after my suicide attempt. They therefore knew I am a vulnerable adult in crisis. To stalk and terrorize a vulnerable adult in this way is criminal, when they are not a threat to national security or public safety. Government bodies have silenced and persecuted me for whistleblowing about NHS failings when the state knows that I am deeply vulnerable. This begs the question – most seriously – whether the United Kingdom really is a liberal democracy because, in my humble view, this conduct by government bodies and state agents is the conduct of a nasty totalitarian state. It’s most certainly not the behaviour of a country that supports free speech and the human rights of its citizens.

What Actions Have I taken?

I have contacted numerous human rights lawyers across the UK – the crème de la crème in police misconduct – asking for their help (Deighton Pierce Glynn, Hodge Jones Allen, Russell Cooke and Rahmen Ravelli.) Many have not responded at all, and others have declined to help me because they say they don’t ‘have capacity’ or because there is a ‘conflict of interest’. It has been heartbreaking to receive these rejections, particularly whilst I am being followed by police, being stalked at bus stops and being hemmed in by nighttime drive-bys. I concluded it’s a closed loop – the system, that is. A gated system. I stopped reaching out. I’ve contacted 20-plus global outlets with tips about fleeing from North Yorkshire due to police surveillance and about the state-mandated censorship of my campaign by the National Security Online Security Team (NSOIT,) but sadly I have had zero response. Perhaps they don’t believe me. I mean, who would? It’s a James Bond movie. But I’m not James Bond. I submitted a record of these criminal allegations about police officers to the Crown Office Procurator Fiscal Service (COPFS) in Kirkwall, Orkney, on January 29th, 2026. I did not get a response from them. The Procurator Fiscal said she would get back to me, but I did not hear from her. On the same day that I submitted my complaint to the COPFS, I also signaled this to the European Court of Human Rights in Strasbourg. I have reached out to Advocacy in Orkney, who said they would refer my case to a solicitor and get back to me but I have not heard back from them.

A Closed System

I have recorded. I have warned, and I have tried to seek accountability, even while homeless in Orkney, but nothing will yield. The stalking continues. I am effectively homeless and terrified, and I see no way out apart from seeking asylum in Europe, which I don’t have the energy to do. The state has hounded me because it is, I believe, terrified of what I revealed during my campaign. The reality of what I exposed was catastrophic in their eyes to the reputation of the NHS trusts I named, so hounding and silencing me has been their solution. Cover it up. None of this is about me, my safety or well-being. This is about reputational management and trying to contain a potential NHS scandal.

To Prime Minister Sir Keir Starmer:

This level of state overreach that has happened under your leadership is despicable. I am not a terrorist or a spy. I am a vulnerable adult, and I was campaigning for help, accountability and reform. The Investigatory Powers Act 2016 clearly states that to surveil someone in the UK, a citizen has had to have committed a crime or pose a threat to national security or public safety. As far as I am aware, I do neither of these. I am a law-abiding, peaceful citizen, and you have treated me like a criminal. I have now been flagged on a national intelligence police database for whistleblowing about NHS neglect, which I did in the public interest. This is unlawful, and it has broken me to the point where I can no longer survive this. Shame on you. Stop speaking in government about accountability and transparency and start acting. This misconduct and abuse of state power costs lives.

What I Ask of You

If you are reading this, I may no longer be able to speak for myself, or I may be at the end of my strength. But what I have done is not nothing. I have tried to document a pattern of surveillance, harassment, and possible misuse of police powers in Orkney, linked to North Yorkshire Police and wider structures. My actions include: I have handed evidence to the Crown Office and Procurator Fiscal Service in Kirkwall and Edinburgh, and I have signalled this matter to the European Court of Human Rights. I have also shared material with journalists and media outlets across Europe and the US. I am scared, exhausted, and pushed to the edge—but I have tried to act with as much clarity and care as I could under pressure. If I am no longer able to continue this fight, I want the following to be known:

• I handed a dossier of evidence to Sue Foard, Procurator Fiscal, at Kirkwall Sheriff Court on 29th January, 2026.
• I have sent hard copies to COPFS in Edinburgh and to the European Court of Human Rights in Strasbourg.
• I have emailed COPFS (enquirypoint@copfs.gov.ukand pfokirkwall@copfs.gov.uk) confirming this.
• I have also shared material with multiple investigative outlets and journalists, and I have kept a personal archive of documents, screenshots, and notes.
• I’ve contacted top-tier human rights law firms and pleaded with heads of departments for help to no avail.
• I’ve reached out to advocacy agencies.

Please Ask These Questions!

I will keep doing my best but if I disappear or am arrested, please treat this as a red flag. Do not assume that the system has acted fairly just because it claims to have done so. Ask:

• Why did Penny Dash, the CQC, the DHSC and 40 MPs ignore four of my public pleas for help during my campaign?
• Why did NSOIT or a government body order search engines and platforms to suppress the visibility of my campaign when my content fell within protected speech?
• Why did the platforms comply with an unlawful directive that violated my human right to expression, (ECHR 10)?
• Why did North Yorkshire Police start this surveillance operation with no warrant or safeguarding order to do so?
• Why did North Yorkshire police hand over my case to national intelligence/Police Scotland so that police followed me to Orkney?
• Why are plain clothed agents following me into libraries, cafes, the CAB, following me on boats and stalking me at my accommodation via audio tracking and onsite agents? Who signed this undercover operation off?
• What links exist between North Yorkshire Police and the surveillance I experienced in Scotland? How is this intel data sharing legal?
• What happened to the dossier I handed in to the COPFS recording this?
• What did COPFS do with it?
• Has the COPFS greenlighted the escalation of this operation? Did they know about it and not act?

On a Larger scale, Please Ask:

• How can this level of state overreach go unrecorded or unregulated?
• How can someone survive twelve years of systemic neglect, four months of regulatory silence following a benign led campaign, state-mandated censorship and police surveillance and harassment without help?
• Who can survive that? Could you?

I do not know if I will live long enough to see justice, but I do not want this to be buried. If you are reading this, please do not let it be covered up. Pass it on to a lawyer, a journalist, an NGO, or someone who can ask the right questions. I was erased in life. If I don’t survive this, please help to ensure I am not erased after. My story matters. It does not end with me. It’s your story too. This can happen to anyone, so please help to ensure it doesn’t. The state must rein in its powers and use them lawfully and proportionally. Don’t let them bury this. Godspeed. Photo Credits: Prime Minister Sir Keir Starmer Official Portrait. Photo: Simon Dawson / No 10 Downing Street / Wikimedia Commons (Open Government Licence v3.0)* Maxwell Andrews, Mark Foster, David Bayliss, Saul Brotheridge, Omar, Bruce Kunkel and Jamie Street on Unsplash. Watford Media, J Costa, Anna Tarazevich, Markus Winkler and Cottonbro on Pexels.

Disclaimer: The post titled “On State Surveillance” does not intend to attack government bodies. This post is based on lived experience, and it raises serious concerns in the public interest about human rights violations.

This post is part of a civic testimony documenting concerns over surveillance and institutional suppression. It constitutes protected speech under Article 10 of the European Convention on Human Rights and relevant international law.

This content does not promote hatred, violence, or discrimination. Any interpretation to the contrary is a misrepresentation of its intent and content. It forms part of a documented record of lived experience and systemic obstruction.

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Summary

My previous post documented my concerns regarding the digital suppression and censorship of my campaign content by, I believe the UK Home Office. This post discusses the possible state surveillance that I think I am under by either the police or the Home Office.  Since my campaign ended on October 31st due to what I believe was digital suppression and censorship, I have become deeply concerned that my phone may be subject to unauthorised tracking or “pinging.”

This post also explains that for reasons of personal safety, I am drawing this blog to a close for now, until this censorship and state surveillance that I suspect is happening has subsided. I don’t feel safe continuing to publish online content under these conditions.

Containment

I have been spending most of my time up in Northumberland. I love it up there and I feel safer there. Being in Northumberland provides me with physical distance from North Yorkshire, the location where I have experienced harm and abuse related to Ampleforth Surgery, North Yorkshire County Council, Tees, Esk and Wear Valley Trust (TEWV,) and potentially North Yorkshire police, (as I think the local police may be involved in the digital suppression of my campaign.)

When I am away from North Yorkshire, I am better able to keep myself safe. I filmed all of my campaign videos from locations in Northumberland. Occasionally I choose other locations to go to, and I have made it public that I spend a lot of time away. I travel lawfully and peacefully on trains or coaches to these places, and I conduct myself lawfully and peacefully when staying in Airbnbs. No homeowners or agencies have complained to me about misbehaviour. I am a peaceful citizen.

Obstruction of Movement

I made plans to travel for a week to Pembroke, South Wales, after my campaign ended on October 31st, 2025. I had booked a coach to leave Leeds at 9.00am on Sunday, 2nd November. On the Saturday 1st November, I called a local taxi firm in Malton, who I have been using for years and who have never denied me a fare before. I asked them if they could collect me at 7.00am to take me to Malton bus station so I could board a bus to Leeds.

The firm told me that they had ‘no availability’ to take me to Leeds ‘and could not take me.’ I found it strange that they were fully booked at 7.00am on a Sunday. 7.00am on Sunday is not a busy time of the week. I found a taxi company in Leeds, whom I booked a fare with. It was scheduled for them to collect me at 7.45am on Sunday. However, on Saturday morning, they phoned me to say they ‘could not take me.’

I don’t know for sure, but I think it is possible that these two denied fares were due to either the police or state agents calling them to tell them not to take me anywhere. It just seemed too random for two firms to deny me fares at that time of day.

No authority currently has any safeguarding orders over me. I am free to travel where I wish. If anyone did tell these taxi firms not to take me to Leeds, then it would constitute possible safeguarding abuse. It also constitutes containment and obstruction. As a result of these denied taxi fares, I had to rebook a train ticket, which was expensive and took me an extra twelve hours of travel.

Human Rights Act –

Article 5: Right to Liberty

If an authority instructed these taxi firms to refuse service to me for travel to Leeds, it could potentially contravene Article 5 of the Human Rights Act, which guarantees the Right to Liberty and Security. This article protects individuals from arbitrary detention or restrictions in movement.

It guarantees that no one can prevent an individual from moving freely without lawful justification. Any restrictions imposed must be proportionate, lawful, and necessary, such as those enacted for public safety or legal proceedings. Restrictions like travel bans, surveillance-based limitations, or coercive monitoring could potentially breach Article 5 if they are not legally justified.

Surveillance – ‘Ping’.

I’m not 100% sure, but I believe it’s possible that the Home Office or the police are using “Ping” to monitor my whereabouts. A ping is a digital signal your phone sends out to connect with nearby cell towers. This signal happens automatically.

Every time your phone pings a tower, it leaves a traceable record of your location. These pings allow mobile networks to monitor your movements across various locations.

Law enforcement and surveillance systems utilise this data to observe individuals. They typically access phone location data through formal legal requests to network providers.

Agencies require warrants or court orders under laws like the Investigatory Powers Act. When a person poses an immediate threat, there are emergency exceptions that allow authorities to access data without prior authorisation. However, unapproved or unofficial access, particularly without a warrant, may be illegal and constitute a serious invasion of privacy.

Police requests for this access to data must be logged and auditable, identify the person and device, and provide justification (such as a legitimate criminal investigation or national security). Under UK law, lawful interception is permitted only with proper legal authority or with oversight from regulatory bodies.

The Human Rights Act, Article 8:

The Right to Private Life

Article 8: Human Rights Act – Right to Privacy.

If the police or state authorities have no warrant or legal basis for accessing this data, tracking my movements and my phone violates Article 8 of the Human Rights Act: The Right to a Private Life. Article 8 states that:

‘Everyone has the right to respect for his private and family life, his home and his correspondence.There shall be no interference by a public authority with the exercise of this right except such as is in accordance with the law and is necessary in a democratic society in the interests of national security, public safety or the economic well-being of the country, for the prevention of disorder or crime’[i]

The right to a private life incorporates the privacy of one’s identity, psychological integrity and one’s communications. This incorporates data and digital presence.

If a provider shared data without logging the request or outside legal channels, it may constitute unlawful surveillance. In summary, unauthorised surveillance, metadata tracking, or suppression of digital testimony – especially if it targets protected speech – may constitute a breach of Article 8.

I am not posing a threat to national security or public safety. Nor am I causing disorder or crime. Therefore, if this surveillance is taking place, it may constitute unlawful surveillance. It is definitley a violation of my human right to privacy.

Reflection

I cannot know for sure if these allegations of state surveillance are true, but I think they are. I also think that authorities are possibly monitoring me via CCTV and facial recognition when I travel through hubs like Leeds, York and Newcastle. The reason that I think they are doing this, is not for concern for my safety, but to contain and watch me due to the controversy of my campaign.

This is not an accusation. However, after my recent trip to Wales, I have reason to believe it could be happening. If it is happening, it would represent a serious violation of Article 8 of the Human Rights Act—the right to privacy, liberty and freedom of movement. This action follows my recent concerns about the digital suppression of my campaign content, a potential violation of Article 10 (Freedom of Expression).

While I have little control over the algorithmic suppression of my campaign content, I do have some control over who can monitor my phone. For that reason, I will now be leaving my mobile phone at home to prevent any possible tracking and surveillance of my movements.

An Act of Protection

I do not intend to cause distress or alarm by leaving my phone at home. It is simply a measure to protect my fundamental right to privacy. I am moving about lawfully and peacefully, and there is no warrant or safeguarding order over me that could necessitate a reason to track my movements.

I also shared this intention publicly on social media: on X, TikTok and You Tube on 10th November, 2025 so that, if my phone stops pinging at cell towers, this is the documented reason.

Coupled with the violation of Article 10 of the Human Rights Act, the right to freedom of expression (which has happened with the digital suppression of my testimony), this potential unlawful state surveillance is a serious impingement of my human rights.

I am therefore calling on the UN special rapporteur on Human Rights to review these patterns.

Final Blog Post

I am terrified by this possible state surveillance. I am frightened for my life and for my safety. My system has gone into a state of ‘freeze’. I have decided to therefore draw this blog to a close for now. I plan to turn my attention to memoir and novel writing: more private creative pursuits, which do not expose me to attack or surveillance by the state.

My Facial Pain will remain live indefinitely. I hope that this website will continue to be a source of information and a resource for readers.

I would like to thank all of the readers who have visited My Facial Pain. Whilst it has not found the reach I had hoped for, for a site that is so detailed, I have been delighted with the steady flow of visitors, so thank you for visiting.

This blog has been a labour of love. It is a body of work that I am deeply proud of. The posts cover such a wide range of topics. I have poured hours of thought and work into creating them. I therefore hope that they will continue to reach as many readers as possible!

It’s a sad note to end on – Silenced by the state and punished for speaking out. This is the reality of the world we live in. Systems do what they have to do to protect their reputations. Even at the expense of a genuine patient in urgent need of help.

It’s tragic, but I trust that you understand why I am having to pull back. It’s for my safety.

Thank you for your support.

Love Felicia X

Footnotes

[i] Human Rights Act, 1998, Article 8, Schedule 1, part 1, www.legislation.gov.uk

Photo Credits: Mike Van Schoonderwart, Marcelo Chagas, Stefan Coders, Imjimmyqian, WdToro, KindelMedia, Pixabay, Brett Sayles and Mart Production on Pexels.

Disclaimer: State-Mandated censorship is not an attack on individuals or government bodies. This post is part of a civic testimony documenting concerns over censorship, institutional suppression and human rights violations. It constitutes protected speech under Article 10 of the European Convention on Human Rights and relevant international law.

This content does not contain misinformation. Nor does it promote hatred, violence, or discrimination. Any interpretation to the contrary is a misrepresentation of its intent and content. It forms part of a documented record of lived experience and systemic obstruction.

Trigger Alert: This post heavily discusses institutional harm and state-level censorship that some readers may find distressing. If you are affected by these issues and need support, please call NHS 111 (option 2) or the Samaritans freephone on 116 123.

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Summary

This blog post and campaign video document my deepest heartbreak and shock at what appears to be state-mandated censorship and suppression of my online campaign content. It documents the systemic visibility suppression and metadata blackout of my campaign content following high platform engagement. This post marks the eclipsing of reach and notification silence across digital systems.

This post documents the events that have unfolded since my last post regarding the first stage of the digital suppression of my campaign—a directive that I believe is coming from the central government.

What’s Been Happening?

My previous post outlined my observations regarding the disappearance of numerous links to my campaign posts on X from Google search results. I raised the concern that NHS trusts may be submitting ‘Right to Be Forgotten’ (RTBF) requests to ask that Google remove these links from search engine results. This is what has happened since that discovery.

I believe I have been the victim of state mandated censorship. I believe this suppression originated from the Home Office or Central Government. However, I believe that North Yorkshire Police possibly triggered this suppression. It is my belief that in the final weeks of October, 2025, a government body issued a directive to all social media platforms and search engines to suppress the visibility of my campaign content. The intent appears to have been to sanitise the public record and to shield evidence of institutional failures.

The state mandated directive has resulted in the systematic deindexing, shadow banning, and algorithmic throttling of my testimony across multiple platforms. It has obstructed my ability to seek help, share evidence, and engage with public interest communities. I believe this constitutes a misuse of state power and a violation of my human rights, particularly my right to freedom of expression under Article 10 of the European Convention on Human Rights.

Here is what has happened:

Bing and Yahoo.

The first thing that I discovered regarding this state mandated censorship of my campaign content is that there is a sign under my X profile on Bing and Yahoo which says they are not allowed to crawl my X page.

Until the end of October, 2025, Bing and Yahoo had fully indexed all of my campaign videos from both TikTok and YouTube. However, in the later part of October, they were all removed. There were none of my campaign videos or any of my silent diaries visible on Bing or Yahoo. A central body has clearly forbidden competing search engines from indexing my campaign content.

After I published this video on TikTok and X, Bing and Yahoo reindexed my YouTube videos. However, they have still not reindexed any of my TikTok campaign videos or silent diaries, which have had high engagement.

My vidoes on TikTok have had thousands of views which is why I assume that central governement have disallowed competing search engines from indexing these ones. There is still a sign under my X page saying that Bing are disallowed from crawling it. This indicates that a central government body is still disallowing competing search engines from indexing from my campaign content.

Google De-indexing

I explained in my previous post that in mid October, links to my X campaign posts were disappearring from Google. I thought that NHS trusts had maybe submitted ‘Right to Be Forgotten Requests’ (RTBF) to Google and I thought that this is what was causing the links to my X posts to be de indexed.

Howevere, later developments caused me to think that this was tied to a much larger censorship directive. Until October 20th, 2025, my X profile and latest posts on X have always been highly visible on Google. My X profile and ‘latest posts’ from my X feed have consistently appeared in search results on Google. However, at the same time that Bing and Yahoo had de indexed my campaign videos, Google removed my latest posts from my X on Google search results. They were no longer indexed on Google.

Additionally, Google’s desktop version deindexed my X profile. My X Profile disappeared. Additionally, Google had not indexed my YouTube channel with all my campaign videos, even though I had 1.7k subscribers. My video campaign’s visibility on Google significantly changed as a result of these four incidents.

Algorithmic Throttling

The worst part of this state mandated censorship has been the algorithmic suppression and throttling of my campaign content on YouTube, X and TikTok. It has been heartbreaking.

TikTok

My TikTok account has been a thriving hub during my campaign. My videos have had thousands of views. TikTok has been continually circulating my videos. Every day, the view count increases on my videos. TikTok has been a wonderful experience of solidarity and support.

The support from people has been incredible. I received at least thirty notifications every morning when I woke up, including likes, comments, and reposts of my videos. After enduring this injustice on my own for twelve years, I have experienced a genuine sense of solidarity from those who have expressed true empathy for my plight. It has made me feel less isolated.

However, on the evening of 26th October, my TikTok archive went eerily quiet. This support abruptly stopped. TikTok ceased circulating my videos at the frequencing that they were doing, notifications significantly diminished, and I was digitally cut off from vital support. The view counts on most of my videos froze.

Since October 26th, the view counts on my videos have stayed the same. Now I get one or two notifications every day from select close followers. This indicates that a central body has possibly told TikTok to only show my videos on very few ‘For You’ feeds. These notifications from supporters have stopped because TikTok does not appear to be sharing my videos as they did.

It is so difficult to lose this connection to viewers. I feel bereft of the support and the dynamic impact my content was making. I feel increasingly more alone by the day. What is so heartbreaking about this silencing is that the lack of response from the DHSC to my pleas for help is hard enough. To be then cut off from supporters feels like persecution.

X, formerly Twitter.

The same pattern occurred on X. My reach was throttled, with views dropping to as low as 60 per post. Only a small cluster of loyal followers continued to see my content. Whilst my posts were still on my feed, very few people were seeing them and they were not indexed. This signficantly eclipsed their visibility.

I do not believe that this sudden decline in views and decrease in notifications on platforms is an algorithmic shift. I think that a government body has possibly told X and TikTok to stop showing my posts on people’s ‘For You’ feeds. This is not organic decline—it is aggressive algorithmic suppression.

This is not just a matter of platform policy. It is a matter of state accountability. If a central body issued this directive to conceal evidence of harm and silence a public interest advocate, it may constitute an illegal act and a breach of democratic protections.

This mass deindexing and algorithmic suppression has concealed my calls for help, suppressed evidence of systemic harm and obstructed public access to testimony that is ethically and legally significant. If this was a coordinated act of censorship, it may constitute a violation of my human rights and a criminal misuse of power by the state.

YouTube Suppression

The situation on YouTube mirrored what I experienced elsewhere, but with the added impact that I paid for promotion.

When I began uploading videos in early October, I received notifications about watch time and reach. I was getting notifications of new subscribers and comments from people prior to the issuance of this shadow ban order.

But since October 26th, I haven’t received any notifications. It seems like YouTube may have muted them. My recent videos have also had very low views even though I have 1.74k subscribers. This suggests YouTube was maybe not showing my videos to my subscribers. This algorithmic throttling is creepy because I could see my subscriber count going up daily, but I had no connection to them because of what seems to be an aggressive shadow ban.

After I published this video on You Tube, my subscription count froze. It had been rising daily. I am wondering if the subscribers are therefore curated as a way to simulate engagement when the Home Office has told them to suppress the reach of my videos. I don’t know as I am in the dark. However, something isnt adding up about this.

Paid Promotion?

YouTube also offered me paid promotion. I accepted promo for five videos around 10th October at £150 each. Google Ads confirmed these promotions. After 26th October, my notifications stopped. A notification subsequently appeared on my account indicating that the promotion had been either paused or halted.

On 17 November, Google Ads sent me an email stating that the promotion from 27th October had been retrospectively disapproved on the grounds of “clickbait” and “sensationalist text”. They did not say this to me at the time that they approved the promotion.

Despite this, Google Ads charged me a further £389 after 27th October, even though they had stopped the promotion.

In total, I paid £579 for promotion that did not deliver reach, leaving me with the sense that the funds went toward suppression rather than expansion. I believe this was not the result of a sudden algorithmic shift or a discretionary change of heart within Google Ads, but rather the implementation of a wider state directive to suppress my reach.

The effect of these actions has left me feeling both isolated and deliberately targeted. What began as an attempt to expand my reach through legitimate promotion ended in silence, with subscribers unable to see my work and funds taken for campaigns that were retrospectively disapproved. The outcome was containment, not expansion, and the isolation it produced is itself evidence of censorship.

What Happened?

This was not coincidental. It signifies, more than likley, that an order from the directive has told a human operator to apply a manual suppresison flag to these videos to protect the bodies involved.

I think that a government body ordered You Tube to stop the promotion. There is no way this sudden change after You Tube had agreed this promotion was user error, or content moderation. This targeted nature of this suppression suggests that this was about political containment.

I am most saddened about YouTube because of the promotion I paid for. Having my reach to subscribers and notifications muted after I have paid £579.00 implies possible monetisation of containment.

Although I am aware that these platforms are following directives from central government, this algorithmic compliance is disastrous. It suggests that social media platforms are now complicit in suppressing a public interest testimony and silencing the voice of a patient desperately seeking help. It is also a violation of my democratic right to speak.

The UK Home Office

A directive of this magnitude, affecting both search engine de-indexing of my content and algorithmic suppression on platforms, can only come from a central body. I am certain that this directive is coming from the UK Home Office.

I think that North Yorkshire police initially triggered the alert to the Home Office. In the month of August 2025, I tagged them in one of my X posts about North Yorkshire County council, (NYCC) not actioning the Public Protection Notice (PPN) that they served on NYCC in April 2025.

It can only be a government body that issued the order for search engines to de-index content so quickly and for platforms to abruptly limit the reach of my content. Additionally, the sudden suppression on TikTok and YouTube took place on October 26 at 8:00 p.m. This is not something a 9–5 office worker could have accomplished. I believe that it was a 24/7 crisis unit that issued this directive.

If I am correct that this state mandated directive is coming from a 24/7 crisis unit, then it is an obscene misuse of power. Crisis units are for monitoring and controlling national security threats, not to silence an advocate seeking help and promoting reform.

On 27th October, I posted on X about this digital siege I was under. I tagged Kier Starmer, asking him to help me. The censorship continued. I had no reply from anyone. This demonstrates that the central government is both aware of and encouraging this censorship. If I am right, then this does constitute state-mandated censorship.

Human Rights Violation

This state mandated censorship is suppressing evidence of documented harm. It is overshadowing my calls for reform, which are in the public interest, and silencing my cries for assistance. I believe that this censorship may constitute the crime of the obstruction of justice and a misuse of state power.

The eclipse of my testimony is also a violation of my human rights. All of my videos and posts safely fall within the remit of protected speech. They do not cite hatred or harassment. My campaign footage is neither defamatory nor slanderous. The language that I use is respectful. It doesn’t dehumanise people or organisations.

Given that my content falls within protected speech, this state mandated censorship and suppression of my online testimony may be a violation of Article 10 of the Human Rights Act.

Article 10 of the Human Rights Act, 1998, includes the freedom to hold opinions and to receive information and ideas without interference from public authority. Suppressing testimony about corporate harm and seeking help is a significant interference with this human right.

This directed suppression of my evidence by the state shows a key defect in a system of working related to freedom of expression and public accountability.

Conclusion

I feel terrified and heartbroken by these events. I am most afraid that the UK government will order a complete closure of my social media accounts. Even though I have issued a statement across all platforms asking them to keep my archive open in the public interest, every time I log in to my accounts, I fear closure.

I am aware that this state mandated censorship is not an attack on me physically but on my online presence, which serves to safeguard the public record. However, I still feel unsafe. I feel the Home Office and the police are watching me. For 30 regulatory bodies to ignore my public pleas for help was torturous enough, but to now silence my voice and cut me off from support is taking it one step too far.

I cannot be sure who is responsible for this suppression of my testimony and for this state-mandated censorship. My belief is that it originates with the Home Office. Whoever is responsible for this, history will hold them accountable. My campaign has been benign. It’s been about calling for help, accountability and  healthcare reform. These missions do not warrant this aggressive level of censorship.

I’ve spoken the truth, and I’ve been punished for it. Silenced. It is deeply unjust.

Video 19: Advocacy Video Campaign

In this video, I had not become aware about the algorithmic suppression on platforms. This video mainly speaks about the de indexing from search engines. My awareness about the algorithmic suppression came days later. Thank you.

Photo Credits: Sora Shimazaki, RDNE, Marco Bianchetti and This is Engineering and Goumbik on Pexels. Gama Films on Unsplash.